October 28, 2019
If you read my book you know at least part of my story. You know that I am a heartbroken mom. You know that my oldest child isn’t even talking to me right now. As a parent that is one of the most painful things you can face. But I have prayed. I have prayed prayers that have stormed the gates of hell and I believe my answer is on its way.
As a parent of a child with addiction, you deal with something almost like PTSD when it comes to your other children. If you let it, fear can completely take over and make you crazy and irrational. I have found that the only way to face parenting with any sort of normalcy is by leaning completely on God. I mean, that really should be out first choice anyway.
I know I can’t control my children’s choices or choose their future. I do my best to teach and lead, but ultimately they choose. Tonight I took my two teenagers with me a worship night at a church in Detroit. I get really excited about worship events because I can just pour it all out. As I was doing just that, I looked over and saw my 17 year old daughter on her knees with her hands raised…and my 15 year old son with both hands in the air singing his heart out. Tears filled my eyes and all I could do was thank God for what He has done…for how good He is.
He answers prayers my friend. I have prayed for these children, that they would love Him, that they would choose to worship. They wanted to go to that church tonight…I didn’t have to make them. When many teenagers would sit with their arms crossed and not engage, they both poured their hearts out to their Savior. It’s the most important prayer that has ever been answered for me. Tonight I’m grateful. How could I be anything else?
Lord, I believe you answer prayer. I am praying for ______________ tonight. I place it in your hands and I trust you completely, in Jesus name.
Be Still –
Now just sit quietly with God, think about the scripture you read, re-read it if need be. Spend the rest of the 15 minutes just being with God.